“My job is chaos,” she says. “I make 200 decisions before 10 a.m. I am responsible for other people’s failures. By the time I get home, my brain is screaming.”
For Nikki, it’s almost entirely non-sexual. It is a survival strategy. nikki abdl
Nikki is a member of the ABDL (Adult Baby/Diaper Lover) community—a subculture that has existed in the shadows of the internet for decades but is only recently beginning to be understood by the mainstream. “My job is chaos,” she says
She closes the door to her nursery. On the other side of the wood, the crinkling starts. And for the first time all day, the world goes quiet. If you or someone you know struggles with identity or trauma, the ABDL community is not a substitute for professional mental health care. Many therapists now specialize in kink-aware or age-regression therapy. By the time I get home, my brain is screaming